For those of you who follow me on instagram, you're wondering at this moment how I use it without a smart phone, aren't you?? my secret: my loving, sharing husband lets me have one app on his phone. I just had to promise to remove all notifications because they were driving him crazy.
But, why don't I have a smart phone? I realize I don't necessarily have to have an iphone (although I'd really love one). I could just get something cheap and simple. But the answer is because I'm too cheap. And my frugality often outweighs my desire for something that I don't need, but just want.
Ben got a droid when we moved to Texas last year when it was time for his upgrade. He needed it for work and he lets me use it when we're out and about if need be. But we couldn't justify the cost of purchasing 2 new phones and renewing our contract for another 2 years (with a company we don't really like) and paying the extra cost for data on top of it all.
So, here I am, with the same phone I've had for at least the last 4 years. Nothing smart about it. Although, it does have a keyboard, so don't hate.
Seriously though, our contract is finally up this month so we'll be shopping around with other providers to find the cheapest deal so that we can both have smart phones. It will be pretty exciting to finally enter into the 21st century!! at the same time I'm sitting here thinking we could continue saving $300 a year by me not getting a smart phone.. hmm, is it worth it? I'll be sure to let you know what I decide.
Is it terrible that we haven't used a baby monitor with Isaac since it broke when he was about one year old? But honestly, I sleep so well without it and I think it's important for mom to be rested each day. Don't you? Besides, we sleep with our door open and I have super sensitive mom hearing (I think that's an actual super power). So if he does wake up crying I usually wake up. Even then though, there isn't much I do about it unless he's screaming bloody murder. He always just cries himself back to sleep (but he almost never wakes up at night. that kid is one. solid. sleeper.)
Most of the time, I feel super inadaquete as a mom. There is so much responsibility that comes along with that title. I mean, I am almost entirely responsible for him on a daily basis because I spend so much one on one time with him. He watches everything I do and hears everything I say. He looks to me to be nurtured and cared for. But even more than that, I'm responsible (of course along side my husband) for discipling his sweet heart and mind and directing Him toward Jesus.
There are days that it all just seems to be too much. Feed him, clothe him, discipline him, feed him, pray for him and over him, teach him, care for him, color with him, play with him, love him, love him, love him, read with him, feed him. And it can be exhausting because I don't have the strength to do all of that, on my own, day in and day out, and certainly I can't do it perfectly well, the way I would like for it to be done.
But that's where grace comes in. And the strength of the Lord. His grace covers my inadaquecies and His strength allows me to do what I know I cannot do on my own.
And how bad is it that I have the Nestle Toll House chocolate chip cookie recipe memorized (the 1/2 and full versions)?? What can I say? I'm a sucker for homemade cookie dough. And sometimes there is enough left over to actually bake a few cookies.
Oh, and I don't edit a single photo I share on my blog. Is that even allowed to be said in the blogosphere? But the truth is, I don't have time for it nor do I care how perfect my photos look. I would rather have them show real life because this blog is a place I use to document our life, and it's real.
That's all I have for now. Have a question you'd like to have me answer?? Leave it in the comments. And please, share any confessions you have below as well.